China Democracy

the world belongs to democracy. bring democracy into China, the old glory bond land.

lunar 2013 steps in.

March 5, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

summon spring 2013


yes, we satisfied. ^ so rich in 2012! we visited first time 上島 cafe Qiqihar franchise original from Taiwan. we ate breakfast in KFC. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, got his glasses updated. God, so leaving 2012 means more fantasy ahead?! let’s see the brilliant 2013, esp my brilliant TW girl.


last workday before lunar Spring festival holiday in PRC. ^ In dawn dreamed of lingering in a railway hostel in Henan, where one of my Nankai University alumni came from and aided my son bought his first ebook reader, a kindle paperwhite, recently. I was likely in a tourist group temporarily passing there by. yesterday I visit my son in dusk. I waited for almost an hour before his mom brought him back from her mother’s house. this week I visit my son every day, just want to share holiday with him. after returned to my dorm, I felt my son seemingly got angry with his mom, who restrained him from watching animations online, for jealous on we beeped when my son and me shared the cyberspace via skype. God, I’m prepared to live with my son under my custody. God, cheer up the deep love between the father and the son with lighthearted enchanters. God, mercy in my son’s heart for bearing love so deep. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to allow full-blown new dynasty of Ming under title of Zhu’s. God, shiny is ur admission here holy.


dreamed of detainment first time.^ last Friday night lately played video game with my son in his mom’s house, and luckily caught up with last bus.this dawn dreamed my most cherished gear, say computer or camera or kindle, was confiscated by state security/intelligence agency. I also was invited to talk &record with cops, in PRC its called drinking tea. I more or less panic, but my friends, my parents urged me to sustain high profile. a police friend also warned retreat gains nothing. Its a sunny morning. I still felt the pains of suffering loses. God, peace in ur eyes stronger than anything. God, dad, bring me sooner my new family under Royal China!


lack of testimony.^ yesterday is wonderful. at noon I in spirit had an idea that I can achieve my long time target, ie. renew my son’s new domain, in advance by loan. the day before yesterday I got another bonus of 900 RMB from QRRS, my once and long time employer. with it I clean my most short term debts and offer promised lunar Spring festival gift for son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. but I felt anxious about when I can renew family’s new domain,, with which we just got for a year, while other 5 domains mostly we bought 8 – 10 years. after lunch I launched. on I found I wasn’t offered other options but exactly one year for renewal. I checkout and buzzed my younger brother who has a small business, 羽朕金属制品, and denied me more than 3 times for loan in the past. but this time he allowed me to borrow swiftly. in wilder joy we talked in air about 20 minutes, about his business and family, our parents, duty of hometown. I hope I didn’t hurt him by my generous tips on parenting. soon after I back to online, another debtee of my son’s dell notebook bought last year asked to chat via qq, a Chinese mainstream IM. I again offered my vision of life, family expertise, etc. after the 2 talks I fet a bit dirty. in this dawn I dreamed a lot about marriage without bond, without testimony, without order or ruling. I reviewed American marriages I watched in episodes online and knew without abidance world will go nonsense, life go cheap. last night more snow gathered on the ground. God, forgive my talkativeness. let those praying for lacks contented, guide missing souls through darkness to the saint light this snow world. God, dad, purifies my spiritual for ur companion forever, never missing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, in my heart even a second. God, Savior, accept my prayer this morning.


family education.^ last Friday night I taught my son a lesson: he forgot to unplug his xbox wireless gamepad. when I arrived I was glad to see him. then found his gamepad powered by rechargeable battery deadly powerless, which never happened for the battery pack as well as the gamepad itself bought no more than half of a year. I at once lost temper &burst to scorn his carelessness, and loose management likely inherited from his shabby mother, a messy small woman and a inefficient Junior English teacher. my son still chose to visit my dorm in the blizzard night after my burst. we ate KFC, enjoyed video games before he slept in my dorm. the next Sunday we ate noodle he likes additionally with a dish of livers I promised him for coming holiday. we haircut and showered together in an underground bathroom where lots of naked men slept there after their showers. I commented that’s strange and likely of gays, but we agreed we should concern no more. next Monday is busy, I sorted family cyberspace assets, prepared my son more video games, till lately visited my son. we made proud progress in our favorite game, "family guy". his playful kick torn my thumb nail, but we had good time while his mom kept distant from us. Its all so nice, but recently I dreamed of my passed dad’s once apprentice, a cheap soul in Zhudajiu, where my dad, God in Heaven now, allowed his gay-alike companion in his late years while the apprentice in his prime time. the cheap soul several years ago before my dad’s passing by attempted to tempt my dad, saying if kissing my dad. my dad told me when I buzzed in from my dorm for holiday about the abuse. my grand dad soon left the world after I told him I via phone after days warn the event direct the haunting gay, a cheap soul peeking my dad so many years and gained his long time wish, a son he can’t breed more than 20s years in his sinful marriage, from my dad’s manly leading. I recently also dreamed of the apprentice’s son, with a cheap large square face. God, nothing impossible for u. God, dad, cease me from revenge. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, allowing me homing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, and my offspring to come ahead.


dreamed of my passed parents and alumni. ^yesterday quite busy: presenting and on skype. in the dusk visit my son in his mom’s house. his mom’s girl friend visiting there with her son, and eating porridge there. the family dominant as usual, shifted my son to play mini flash game online on his mom’s shabby notebook under the boy’s control. I knew at once my son’s mom’s cheap and losing. so I picked son’s kindle and read an English book about Christian 2 millenniums alone. the self-aggrandized family urged leaving soon constantly but stayed lately. I quit my reading till my son asked to play video games on his dell notebook &Haier 32′ LED TV, some time after the bully family left. I know my son’s serving heart, his longing for friendship/partnership. I forgive his ignorance upon meaningful resources I prepared for him, includes video games, kindle and mobile library in it. God, u see through my son across the delusion of values. u see how wonderful my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, is. enhance him by bring sooner my other sons and daughters from my Royal China, God, dad.
this dawn I again dreamed of my passed parents in family time. also recently a Nankai schoolmate now professes Buddhism in American university dwelt in my mind and dream. Its a silent busy morning, God, bring me sunshine in the tunnel toward highland my Royal China palatial circumscribes. thx, dad God.

From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From 2012 on the way to rejoin
See the full gallery on Posterous

View this post »
Leave a comment »

February 9, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

slim season


hurt by Chinese air pollution. ^ since last Sunday dining out with son, my throat hurt by well-known Chinese smoky air all over the country and now sneeze, too. in dawn dreamed of living in campus or QRRS dorm. my bed in a corridor. my once QRRS colleague, also the best man of my first civil wedding, WangChangqing, also lived there. then dreamed in family I tried too many times to release hot water for some usage from heat pipe, and broke the inside plastic tube. Its urgent otherwise the heat water will run cross the house, so I hasted to ask my 3rd sister's attention for help. now its a bright morning, I sign-on QRRS check-in system, ate breakfast in dorm canteen. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, glad to chat with me last night online, likely for I help him find a long time missing video game. God, bring me my girl LV, Asoh Yukiko, girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl sooner aside me, bring out our prosperous offspring in time. thx God dad! 


dreamed of hometown, Wuxue. ^ in dawn dreamed first in Zhudajiu, my passed dad's village, where disgusting toilet again harassed me. when I strongly reluctantly entered it and poo, a middle aged doctor and 2 young ladies hovering around me and continuous chatting with me. all of them r villagers there. then dreamed in the town, Wuxue's bus station, those lazy and loosing ticket sale women peeking into my purse. and I had to frequently dug my purse and anxious about thieves there. Its likely the first work day QRRS, my once and long time employer, and a state-owned company, adopted card check-in system. I arranged ring in the night and It woke me up this morning. so far I succeeded sign-on in the morning crowd and now returned to dorm to open a new day in front of my notebook. God, dad, please show me sooner my Royal China, bring sooner my other children in heaven now. please let my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, enjoy the life and cozy of Internet as I do. that's my prayer in this smoky morning after shallow snow. 


dreamed working together with son. ^ in dawn dreamed I worked with my son on a legacy system. I tried hard and completed the missing function of the old application. so my son and I was enrolled by the company. then my previous workmate called in informing QRRS, my long time employer adopted card check-in system, so hope I can sign on twice a day with the employee card. I was idle so I visited old office and filed to director for a desktop. now I surfing via corporate lan on my notebook. God, I looking forward bliss in the sunny day, grant me opener workspace step by step. God, dad, thx for recent good time with my son, with my workload. bring me sooner my Royal China to allow our glamorous task on the planet, in corner of world by China mainland. 


dreamed of my Japanese girls. ^ the dorm is warm. in dawn dreamed 2 Japanese girls in my life. one is the actor, Jutani Nami, from a Taiwan episode "爱无限" I deeply touched, the another is Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen. I managed harmony between them when we dwell each together. our parents also appeared before our wedding ceremony. Asoh more self-preserved and I in dream more trying appealing to her. we also attending birth school. we had good time in love. God, time of life passing, where is our family life with my Royal China? yesterday is first day of son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's winter vacation. son more or less anxious about his school performance which so far less impressive. God, all bliss is over his living on the earth. 


dreamed of being a boiler man. ^ in dawn dreamed life of an elder boiler man. he tried to make friend of 2 girls, a Japanese girl, a Chinese girl, in campus, first by inviting the Chinese girl help him washing his clothes with reward. then found his wife and child ages missing. then closely witness the Japanese girl's life: her mother, her classmates, etc. later I visit her school with red wine and shared with her. likely I felt in love with her.
these days I busy with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's new sites, , designed it a logo, updated family sites with new sidebar &footer to include new member sites link. Chinese censorship delayed my operation heavily, but thanks God, it done. and also with my son made proud progress in our video game. God, u see the prize of my joy on the root of the planet. bring me sooner my Royal China, God dad! 


dreamed of my company, Dragon Horse. ^ dreamed I worked first for a company and pivoted a project with my smartness even not brightest. then build a company of my own for ignorance of the company I worked for. the company name is 骥, or Dragon Horse. Its first product is the rebuild of the project I previously contributed to. then the old larger company competed and tried to occupy our land by crushed with machine and cultivated our borderland. then dream my company worked on high technology I now didn't recall, but its vivid and lengthy in dawn dream. I only remembered I worked hard and enjoy it, within my company. yesterday I visit my son in the afternoon. we played video games and I taught my son about team works when he too haste to edge me out in the shooting game. when I returned to QRRS dorms, I penniless except some changes for bus. I tried to borrow a meal in a nearby restaurant where I frequented and it loaned me several times, but this time the girl casher definitely denied. however, I managed to eat a dinner loaned by another small restaurant. God, today I likely had to live with only a meal, or even worse, for my son's mom said when she cursed my visit her house will be empty today, in aim to evade me. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home me and my sons. God, thx Dad. in this draining Chinese holiday season in PRC, sinking IS not me but the floating and hardly wrecked nation, PRC. God, save me from drift in the chill driving scattered Chinese, toward save or seize of death. God, sure is the sunny morning outside. God, blessing my 2013 and its 1st day today. 

From benlogo
From 2012 on the way to rejoin

January 17, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

last early full moon in 2012

December 31, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

now winter.


a strange dream. ^last night I visited my son &had good time immersed together in video games. this dawn dreamed with my cousin, Zhuwusong, in our hometown village, Zhudajiu, voluntarily donate blood. then I visit a digital tech company, impressed by their digital door keeper gears, inc computers managed card reading, and 3D animation workstations, which is my previous job. then with the cousin leaded by teachers or group, we voluntarily donate sperm. we dissected fields and choose woman in it. I managed to pick healthy and attractive woman but the cousin let me hurry. the dorm's water heat again less satisfactory, chilled me up. Its a peaceful sunny morning now. God, bring sanity to my son's living environment. bring sooner my Royal China to allow me home my son, and my sons and daughters arriving. 


warrenzh's first skate in 2012. ^ this weekends reunion sweeter in our hearts, for I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, that I prepared to live him alone with me, away from his mom's dirty and poisonous seductive home life. last Friday afternoon I visit my son when his school is in break. my son was arranged by his mom to do homework while the bitch grandma, herself a dummy stone intelligently, supervised my son. I so picked to busy on my notebook away till found the cheap grandma selling sexually to my son. so I hauled &scorned &cursed. my son soon quit his homework and played pc games with me and made proud progress in it. in the night in my dorm, I saw my son's dirty environment, so I made a decision to allow my son choose if live under my custody, in my shabby dorm room. in the weekends we ate beef noodle warrenzh chosen, showered in the public bathroom he picked. I urged times and times that in God's world he obliged to nobody, liable to nobody around him serving him. he several times let me shut up but God knows its clearer those freaky women back to what hell they from. In Sunday afternoon it starts to snow again so warrenzh went to skate as his mom suggested. he had good time on the ice ground. God, isn't it saved and blessed?
these days I also dreamed of my kid brother several times, reviewing our brotherhood in dream. this morning I again dreamed of Nankai Univ, where I attending a seminar and trying present my thesis. quite some alumni appeared there in my dawn dream. God, grant us a happy Christmas holiday, enrich our life with due season gifts. God, bring sooner my Royal China. 


memorable weekends reunion. ^ last weekend descended after I looked forward it for more than a week. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, descended to visit my QRRS dorm, first time after salary's shrink. we dined in KFC, also a toast stick from nearby restaurant where I last time rebuffed for loan to eat there. of cause we played video games. my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, shown likeness to stay with me, which let me sorry, and his mom's short of hospitality. last night I watched a Taiwan loving idol TV episode lately near 1am, burningly touched by spirit and inspiring faith of love in the story. God, u show me the merit of American and Japanese girls. God, so many meanings in the show for my concerns. God, allow me do more things i liked to make life better around me and people in my life. God, dad, thx u for this brilliant morning sunshine, and bring sooner my Royal China, so as to allow me home my son, my sons and daughters to arrive, in ur shine&grace cozily. Thx dad. 


dreamed of sky-skiing with son. ^ dreamed my grand father eyes on us all time, with love. I fought in team of my dearest son against pests, like the video game we played last dusk. then we damaged something of my neighbor's, likely in my hometown, Zhudajiu village. then we skyskiing with hot air balloon. son steers while i hanged under my son. near before landing I was allowed to pilot it, and landing near our town. God, son's mom plotting against my weekends reunification with my son, God, thrust the evil, deflate it. grant me new shoes in the winter, son's ebook reader before year end. thx, God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China and show my son the true family life we deserve. 


2nd snow in winter. ^ yesterday I enjoyed video game with my son so immersed. on way to dine out, I told him why girl Lv will be my first wife: the first girl, LvSongya, descended to honor me by visiting my family in my life back to my junior middle school. after showered, we found 2nd snow shallowly covered the ground. so I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, story of my eldest sister, ZhuXuezhen (means essence of snow in Chinese), who committed suicide when I was a junior middle school student by jumping into Yangtze River in deep dawn, likely after dispute with her husband. I admire her so much and proud of her, like our grand father did. in the night in dorm, my favorite TV series, "The good wife", telling a law suit of suicide. God, u know how I gracious I am in ur arms. God, dad, so many people, esp ur first kid and ur 3rd son, witness and benefit from ur Goodness. God, this morning I again dreamed with my son, warrenzh, so harmoniously. he covered me again in dream lingering. God, bring me sooner my Royal China in shine of God! 


dreamed of genius. ^ yesterday admitted to my son its my fault to unease with him who under God's guide, for after compared myself, grateful &intact even after dishoner God put on me trapped in asylum 4 times and a pare of infectious eyes. son likely welcome it heartedly. in dawn dreamed of a proven kid genius, who calculates big math question easily. later found the young genius in fact my dearest son, who turned so friendly to me and protected me with his smartness. its a pale morning, but God, I look forward ur promise, grant us a ebook reader, bring closer my Royal China. 

December 4, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

leaving summer 2012 happily.


son, warrenzh first time played soccer for more than an hour. ^ yesterday is a full sunny day. I, the proudest father, visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 after lunch in QRRS in-factory canteen. I bought him his favorite KFC food. we tried again our new xbox wireless gamepad with a new pc game, "Damage Inc", and enjoyed flying in jet. later we hanged outside, joined a dad and his son playing soccer on nearby sports yard. son never ran and kick so long but still energetic in near 2 hours. I myself enjoyed body practice rarely in decades. this morning i dreamed bringing son visit somewhere, and introduced son's teeth rotation. when warrenzh opened his month, i found the only front teeth hanging lonely and dropping anytime. God, allow me sports more with my son, equipping him a new sport shoes. God, bring change to my life with my girls! 


dreamed of sex tour with girl Liu, my once Nankai Univ. girl friend. ^yesterday I visit son celebrating harvest of new pc games from web. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, told me the xbox wireless gamepad we ordered online together in my dorm last Friday night arrived. we narrowly tried 2 games after i fix driver problem &settled the gear. when i returned to my QRRS dorm, Its 9:02pm. in dawn dreamed of my Nankai Univ. alumnus Liu, a girl with whom I was in love for more than 2 years before broke up when we graduated. we traveled and made love in the dawn dream. finally we visit an American family whose the mom absent, but a father and his son. i dreamed making love with the Liu there till woke up. Its a sunny and peaceful morning. God, u know how i longing for love and making love, bring me rich rain and tender love in my life so long praying. God, bring me Royal China sooner! 


our game experience will enhanced by new xbox wireless gamepad. ^ we had bought a cheap xbox gamepad which cost ¥90, but it soon ill-working. even recently our gaming desire wading in growth of years, but I, the proudest father, still suggested to equip us with a new wireless gamepad. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, admitted it. It's a hard month, for my pinching finance hardly support it. but last night we narrowly settled the order online, and hopefully we can find funs with the new gift among our pc games. It's sad to here from web news that pirate pc games deeply hurt game makers, who brought us so many happy time and I even encouraged my son's career interests in the industry. God, merits save itself. world plenty and meaningfulness in the beautiful binary domain, digital games. God, bring prosperity into the educational while entertaining product, sustain smart minds in the industry and their good fortune from fruitful workload! God, let's witness ur glory and grace in my son, warrenzh's childhood engagement or activities. God, see me my Royal China, my girl Lv, my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, my girl zhou with which I still linked with the company my nest inside so far stable, and my Taiwan girl who evade me for more than half year. God, u see all these. 


dreamed of being in love with a girl in my hometown Zhudajiu village. ^ the girl named Zhufengtao. when i studied in elite Huanggao senor middle school, in vacations my mother brought me to visit her at her parents' house in Zhudajiu village. later she also graduated and worked in Shenzhen, made good fortune and help her parents rebuilt their house in the village, while her 2 brothers likely less fortunately, both cargo driver and one even kept single in his 40s. her father once a worker in the county town, and befriend me when I was a student. in dream I had warm heart in chasing his daughter. Its a peaceful morning. God, u see how I prepared myself for my coming Royal China. God, bring change into my life so far fruitful. 


dreamed of alumni of my senior middle school. ^ in dawn dreamed of Huanggang senior middle school alumni gathered when our brotherhood still strong. dreamed they help each other among the meeting. late dozed, dreamed along a cargo team from southwestern China, battled with road troopers. also dreamed myself fought with young beast extorted on my privacy. It's a sunny morning. God, bring changes to my life so far here praying for my girls and my bestowed land from my ancestor with glory


dreamed travel with son against his grandma. ^ dreamed my ex-mother-in-law plotted with her daughter against my intimacy with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. I, benzrad 朱子卓, insisted touring with them. in a hotel they prepared dinner while kept eyes upon us, I led my son and his dozens pals exploring tunnels of the hotel till returned successfully to the dinner. God, u see my struggle to father my dearest son,warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe. God, bring my Royal China sooner and allow me catering to my sons, esp my first son warrenzh, a better life. God, see me and my girls our being intact among adversity exerted by enemies of new China Empire that will live 1109 years under title of Zhu's. God, thanks for ur promise allowing me visit my son with great gifts, in these days and future. 


dreamed of teeth rotation. ^ dreamed with son visit a car show, where we take part in eating hamburger contest. when I comparing teeth with my son: his teeth grow mature, while one of my teeth, very small and young, dropped upon shaking. 

From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From 2012 on the way to rejoin

August 31, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

hot seat for coming hostess.

August 8, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

enjoy reunited.

July 18, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

reason that’s hot in summer.


prayer in surrounding darkness.^God, my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, u r so weak and enduring. save us from dirty and dark environment we were set in. let the monster in his mom's family killed and disappear. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and shelter my son warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, more readily. 

Dscf8418 Dscf8419 Dscf8421 Dscf8423 Dscf8408 Dscf8413 Dscf8415

June 29, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

summer gaining.

June 6, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

« Previous Entries