China Democracy

the world belongs to democracy. bring democracy into China, the old glory bond land.

summon spring 2013


yes, we satisfied. ^ so rich in 2012! we visited first time 上島 cafe Qiqihar franchise original from Taiwan. we ate breakfast in KFC. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, got his glasses updated. God, so leaving 2012 means more fantasy ahead?! let’s see the brilliant 2013, esp my brilliant TW girl.


last workday before lunar Spring festival holiday in PRC. ^ In dawn dreamed of lingering in a railway hostel in Henan, where one of my Nankai University alumni came from and aided my son bought his first ebook reader, a kindle paperwhite, recently. I was likely in a tourist group temporarily passing there by. yesterday I visit my son in dusk. I waited for almost an hour before his mom brought him back from her mother’s house. this week I visit my son every day, just want to share holiday with him. after returned to my dorm, I felt my son seemingly got angry with his mom, who restrained him from watching animations online, for jealous on we beeped when my son and me shared the cyberspace via skype. God, I’m prepared to live with my son under my custody. God, cheer up the deep love between the father and the son with lighthearted enchanters. God, mercy in my son’s heart for bearing love so deep. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to allow full-blown new dynasty of Ming under title of Zhu’s. God, shiny is ur admission here holy.


dreamed of detainment first time.^ last Friday night lately played video game with my son in his mom’s house, and luckily caught up with last bus.this dawn dreamed my most cherished gear, say computer or camera or kindle, was confiscated by state security/intelligence agency. I also was invited to talk &record with cops, in PRC its called drinking tea. I more or less panic, but my friends, my parents urged me to sustain high profile. a police friend also warned retreat gains nothing. Its a sunny morning. I still felt the pains of suffering loses. God, peace in ur eyes stronger than anything. God, dad, bring me sooner my new family under Royal China!


lack of testimony.^ yesterday is wonderful. at noon I in spirit had an idea that I can achieve my long time target, ie. renew my son’s new domain, in advance by loan. the day before yesterday I got another bonus of 900 RMB from QRRS, my once and long time employer. with it I clean my most short term debts and offer promised lunar Spring festival gift for son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. but I felt anxious about when I can renew family’s new domain,, with which we just got for a year, while other 5 domains mostly we bought 8 – 10 years. after lunch I launched. on I found I wasn’t offered other options but exactly one year for renewal. I checkout and buzzed my younger brother who has a small business, 羽朕金属制品, and denied me more than 3 times for loan in the past. but this time he allowed me to borrow swiftly. in wilder joy we talked in air about 20 minutes, about his business and family, our parents, duty of hometown. I hope I didn’t hurt him by my generous tips on parenting. soon after I back to online, another debtee of my son’s dell notebook bought last year asked to chat via qq, a Chinese mainstream IM. I again offered my vision of life, family expertise, etc. after the 2 talks I fet a bit dirty. in this dawn I dreamed a lot about marriage without bond, without testimony, without order or ruling. I reviewed American marriages I watched in episodes online and knew without abidance world will go nonsense, life go cheap. last night more snow gathered on the ground. God, forgive my talkativeness. let those praying for lacks contented, guide missing souls through darkness to the saint light this snow world. God, dad, purifies my spiritual for ur companion forever, never missing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, in my heart even a second. God, Savior, accept my prayer this morning.


family education.^ last Friday night I taught my son a lesson: he forgot to unplug his xbox wireless gamepad. when I arrived I was glad to see him. then found his gamepad powered by rechargeable battery deadly powerless, which never happened for the battery pack as well as the gamepad itself bought no more than half of a year. I at once lost temper &burst to scorn his carelessness, and loose management likely inherited from his shabby mother, a messy small woman and a inefficient Junior English teacher. my son still chose to visit my dorm in the blizzard night after my burst. we ate KFC, enjoyed video games before he slept in my dorm. the next Sunday we ate noodle he likes additionally with a dish of livers I promised him for coming holiday. we haircut and showered together in an underground bathroom where lots of naked men slept there after their showers. I commented that’s strange and likely of gays, but we agreed we should concern no more. next Monday is busy, I sorted family cyberspace assets, prepared my son more video games, till lately visited my son. we made proud progress in our favorite game, "family guy". his playful kick torn my thumb nail, but we had good time while his mom kept distant from us. Its all so nice, but recently I dreamed of my passed dad’s once apprentice, a cheap soul in Zhudajiu, where my dad, God in Heaven now, allowed his gay-alike companion in his late years while the apprentice in his prime time. the cheap soul several years ago before my dad’s passing by attempted to tempt my dad, saying if kissing my dad. my dad told me when I buzzed in from my dorm for holiday about the abuse. my grand dad soon left the world after I told him I via phone after days warn the event direct the haunting gay, a cheap soul peeking my dad so many years and gained his long time wish, a son he can’t breed more than 20s years in his sinful marriage, from my dad’s manly leading. I recently also dreamed of the apprentice’s son, with a cheap large square face. God, nothing impossible for u. God, dad, cease me from revenge. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, allowing me homing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, and my offspring to come ahead.


dreamed of my passed parents and alumni. ^yesterday quite busy: presenting and on skype. in the dusk visit my son in his mom’s house. his mom’s girl friend visiting there with her son, and eating porridge there. the family dominant as usual, shifted my son to play mini flash game online on his mom’s shabby notebook under the boy’s control. I knew at once my son’s mom’s cheap and losing. so I picked son’s kindle and read an English book about Christian 2 millenniums alone. the self-aggrandized family urged leaving soon constantly but stayed lately. I quit my reading till my son asked to play video games on his dell notebook &Haier 32′ LED TV, some time after the bully family left. I know my son’s serving heart, his longing for friendship/partnership. I forgive his ignorance upon meaningful resources I prepared for him, includes video games, kindle and mobile library in it. God, u see through my son across the delusion of values. u see how wonderful my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, is. enhance him by bring sooner my other sons and daughters from my Royal China, God, dad.
this dawn I again dreamed of my passed parents in family time. also recently a Nankai schoolmate now professes Buddhism in American university dwelt in my mind and dream. Its a silent busy morning, God, bring me sunshine in the tunnel toward highland my Royal China palatial circumscribes. thx, dad God.

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February 9, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

dogs plotted to trap me.

sorted google browser, chrome, and its extensions by disabled some less useful, trying to fix its large ram comsuming. claimed family namespace, warozhu, with google groups after done it with plaxo groups yesterday. the monitor, a hard core gay&esp. cheap in essential&criminal in mindset, espionaged me closer these days, left lately at noon and returned early around 12:30pm when i listening a Japanese album from google China music portal as usual. the neighbor dogs, ie, the evil once colleagues&dying for its own sin&aimlessness after it was seperated from harm me any more after departmental restructure, including previous departmental director in family name Huang, his driver, a gay in family name Wang&local hooligan’s friend, via who the Huang attempted to pay to hurt me, soon gathered in their office which tentatively arranged surrounding my office, &complained my music noisy, the monitor demanded lower the volumn, but i just ignored it. then the shits bumped to close my notebook. i pushed on his chest when he return to me while i watching outside the window, the 2 gays in office both encharged and prepared to fist. the facing evil unplugged the power line. i ignored the rest babbles while trying to resume my computer, till found the power down by the facing dog. they all r dead, and thirsty for death match, like ghost entangling the live. the all things just a plot attempting to trap me and humilate me in violence, with which they want to disable me once and forever. God sees, i never kill men with my own knife, they just don’t deserve.

left office after 2:30pm. reviewed my situation in dorm. heart weighten for my missing girl zhou. dined after 4:30pm, then went to the cross way to greet my girl. i didn’t wait as long as usual, for i don’t put insurance on my girl’s presence after knowing my waiting from the spying environment all around. when i on way to dorm, i saw a girl in long white coat and white boots holding a middle aged woman just disappearing crossing the gate of the residential area my girl’s house locates. i’m sure that’s my girl, my girl zhou who arranged to assure me our love. bought food before returned dorm. in dorm, in high mood of blessing&buzzed baby son. dined again in the restaurant near the cross road after roamed some time indoor. God, today really a bright day!

February 4, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

my first western style dinner: family haunted Golden Hans buffet.

Sent from Harbin, 23, China

life span and rhythm likely speedier and more frequent when its near year’s end. today i here wrote my 3rd post within weeks about my life, to accompany family recent photos shot when we dine out in a buffet. ema and I scheduled it for months, back to when i got a bonus of ¥100 from QRRS, likely for the International Journalist Day, for I once worked as crew of the cable TV branch of the company. baby just recovered from his recent heat, likely God just let him staying home to prevent the evil grandma to steal my inner clothes. He got heat in Thursday night, then stayed home for 2 days otherwise should join his kindergarten till weekend. in the Saturday dawn, i dreamed of my girl Zhou visited me, just when the evil grandma’s dirty cold lingered on me in half-woke. I then had a good time with my girl Zhou, i search on the web for so long, till dawn light baptised me. then i got up earlier than usual, and be the first got up among family members, to busy on my cyberspace business. baby son while woke up urinated in quilt, first time he does and let his mom in fuss. its a special moment for me, for its my first time meeting my beloved in semi-consciousness and made love. but i didn’t wet myself for we, my Royal of China, never home-stay in profaned situation.

in the buffet, i treated myself lots of coffee, after enough meat. its also my first time dining in western style, ie, with fork, knife, and spoon. i quite enjoy it. when i went to fetch my favorite food, i mistakenly took a plate to load some porridge, i at once was remind of the hard time in western history movie when people ate soup from sallow dish. ema correct my mistake. i later ate lots of porridge in cups. that’s really delicious. amid the dinner, ema complained my full and no appetite to later dishes, i reviewed the buffet, and imaging the open kitchen of google. SIGH, when google’s office kitchen can prevail the world likes its better than free services! when working people enjoy open and free buffet like free communication in air or on land or online, like freedom of speech, just for we r citizen of the earth!!!

this week more balanced. after settled family google voice and wave accounts, i enjoy more leisure time to read technical news via my subscriptions. google’s chrome os no doubt let me in wonder. i wouldn’t hesitate a second if its available for me to replace windows. i really hated the fragile security of windows, and everywhere spying or hacking behaviors in the world, esp. the dogs dominating China.

Today is again a bright day, i enjoy the warmth and brilliant sun ray since the morning. in dawn, those domestic sites blocking my posting last night turns speedy now, i too busy with posting history items to complain how many of my life wasted among lagging surf and filtered or invisibly delayed or banned posting, which turns in these months more rampant than ever. i had times told my baby son, the Hope of China and God of universe, the China authority dying in fear, and our Empire merging in dawn light from God’s shine against clearer western background as basement and ground works. and time for my reunification with my beloved, my girls, turning cloudless clear.

From Family Haunted GoldenHans Buffet

baby son, warren zhu, enjoy his buffet.

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benzrad, me, suggest a toast with baby son.

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November 23, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

shit China surveillance, failed lots of proxy, including freedur

i tried lots of web proxies. my newly created blogger blog shown me admin but the blogger management panel don't give me admin privilege, not allowing me to invite authors. i don't' why why it is, all my old blogs all defying my inviting authors function after i logon via a web proxy and the only working one. they broke into my web id long time, and i not sure if they stealth my admin privilege and cheat the site not to allow my admin privilege while shown me as admin on the page, or just the web proxy confused's admin system.

later i resort to freedur, which enjoy good fame among Chinese users under China tighten surveillance these days. but i can only access homepage once, after i submit my login detail, my traffic again fell into mute.i sometimes casually open a blog's homepage, and shown i logon for the page shown edit link to allow me open editing widget window, but thats' all, any attempts to open the setting page of my blogs indifferently went lost.
shit the China surveillance. they acted like can't wait time anymore to spent out their only time before their total collapse. surely they saw their hells.
however, i got my blogs on for my left baby bird, they r and . i also claimed a blog for my web id benzrad, at .thx God, i recent paid more attention to my baby&myself Chinese Pinyin name, and even blogger's user so large a group, i got our blogs in exact Chinese name or my coined name without any deter. they r ,mine .with these beautiful namespace, i felt really bounty of God's gift for my Royal of China under his shine.
fairway, China surveillance and shits Internet cop/dog. my kingdom doomed to grow and blow, ur destiny of tomb near and near. u pick fall. i endorsed with rising.

June 22, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

a great week.

avatar of my nephew, designed by me.
my work of designing nephew an avatar or logo, at 

my breakfast in mid of my morning work. mother cooked for me these days.

this week really busy. it started with a landrush for facebook's vanity url claiming. i got up unusually around 5 am and waited for the moment the site allow my claiming my frequent web id. when all ready, i finished it within several minutes, with several kind of browsers open and several family facebook accounts logged some disappointing, i got known that some family facebook accounts i recent built, not allowed to register their favorable name in its url, and later via search i got known on 28th of this month, i will get it. in the night in daily discuss with baby and his mom in Qiqihar, northeastern China, i told them the great news of their vanity urls, but they didn't applaud as i expect. baby still don't want talk to me and banned his mom doing so.

then the next day launched to retouch family twitter background image to include new facebook profile url. that merely cost me a day to design and update twitter sites with the outcome. coming next is to add facebook connect, now with more family facebook profiles, to family genwi newspapers, to improve its universal log in and richer publication sources. i did the same later to family retaggr accounts. in the afternoon. the nephew who just came over his national college entrance exam, visited me, i picked his once ask for a avatar like mine, with powerful warez i collected from web, i demonstrated him and finished the work after near 3 hours. in the night, i suddenly felt the decision to add Chinese domestic mailbox into alternative secure mailbox among my google accounts was wrong, for China surveillance anytime can break into any account with domestic ISPs, obtain all credentials u registered, ruin ur account at will, so its wiser to cut off all my google and yahoo accounts' sharing detain with Chinese ISPs. that cost me more than a day, and this morning, when i sorted my bookmarks locally, i felt time to make clear family googlepages sites ripes. so i launched to check every family google account to make full use of them to claiming more googlepages. google decided migrating googlepages to its sites product, and stop all googlepages' registry. but account already open a googlepages can continue create no more than 3 sites in one gmail account.  its really a joy to enrich my domains with these new sites.
ok, its my recent works, its turning sultry these days after enough rain and clouds. i really appreciate the weather since my arrival in my hometown journey. i rightly look forward re-experience the heat and moist here in central China where i was bred, i look forward more direct contacts with the stinging sunshine, my best gift and one of most powerful tool of Masheng, my Japanese fiancee.
these days in a turbulence of site building, i seldom talk with Masheng, nor girl lÜ in her 2 days' rains. i also don't sing after dinner as usual. the neighbor wives upset me. and hostile neighbors got me low.
ok, its time to bye.i hope its not a long time before i kiss my baby son again. i hope we can enjoy more and more in the coming years.

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June 15, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

a busy week, nephew returned from college entrance exam&join cyberlife here.

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

the Chicken sex changer, a demon my mother attempted to treat

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my mother in breakfast.

its nice cool morning. last night i really painful when i dreamed of the suffering of my baby and my Royal. i envisaged the dictator of China devised a conspire, let my alone spend at will while my expending all at cost of my family's fixed income. if i eat and play well,then they suffered lost and pain. the authority surveillance it and only me don't know the plot. the imaging i saw many times in my distressed time before fall into asylum, i never afford to see my Royal suffering, and that let me fight on 2 front lines and broke me apart several times. it drizzled since dusk just after i visited toilet and sat in the front yard of my dad's house and started to sing. it lasted when i busy in night to claiming myself another facebook account, benzillar land. i decided in dream that return to Qiqihar to care baby soon after it turns daytime. but after woke up the anxiety decreased and my faith in the Mightiest God resumes. i know that God wouldn't let my Royal under his shine suffer the evils the demon in China exerts, God wouldn't let me in dark any more helplessly. if he want to alert me something, i can know but usually not great fear or distress. the most time of following God should be joy and peace.

its a nice morning now. i can anticipate some sunshine later. rain day really beautiful and let me productive. i know Masheng for whom i stayed here waiting for 4 months likes to introduce girl lǔ to me, let me review her love in the past years in the rain. the night before last night, i told baby my girls prepared villas in Taibei, Beijing, Shanghai, Wuhan, Nanjing, for our gathering to come. he giggled and likely his mother, ema, also listening. baby these days yet don't want to talk me online. 

its a long road leading me to God's shine, but not a slow way to God. decided to follow God not always peaceful, sometimes it can rock/torn u out of track, like the several moments my heart torn by imagery dilemma in which my beloved&myself can't move or respond but just suffering pains of helplessness. they r all God's show on me before i find the way toward his door. God loves true love, and true lover. like the bible says, there is only spirit in the world. anything just a load of the spirit.

ok, its a nice morning to disclose my distress, and difference a faith in God brings. i always in need to declare, that i forever follow God, no matte how the seeing and delusion how can persuading my urgent action to save my beloved. i love God, the only creator of Universe and the Mightiest. glory forever belongs to him and never a devil can leave a smog on it. i never want to live in fear and unbalanced.

June 11, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

a media reply

From Family&folks ∑ hometown journey

My elemental school teacher, a villager, now a boss of concrete products.

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

front door view of my past dad's house.

below is a reply i wrote on Jun 5, 2009,  in answer of an inquiry from a site, ThisIsDiversity, about my some opinion on China surveillance. i glad to see emerging chance to be opener.


Doug Cress suggested that I contact you. My name is Julia Garrison and I am ThisIsDiversity’s Special Features Reporter.  I would love to learn more about your situation as a journalist in China: the topic of internet censorship is one that I find extremely problematic. It would be great to get your story on this  highly debated issue so that I could write an article informing people around the world about what is happening in your country.


What kind of restrictions are placed on Journalists in China?

i m not a journalist, i worked once for a state-owned enterprise and work in its cable tv branch, designing heading and caption. i never got any promotion even i think my work was marvellous. gradually i got clear the invisible constrain cast on me. after a dispute with the director of the department, i got kicked from my professional position, instead i was assigned a job in the title of "temporary worker", one reason why i was not laid off was in China enterprises not encouraged to do so, but i think deeper review is that the state intelligent want to keep me in cage to observe. now i work full time on cyberspace, with my first domain, at , i got 3 years ago.
China has now 3 main portals in its Internet service. 2 built by returned Chinese graduate or post-graduate from American universities, ie. and , in my view they offer nothing but exotic/vulgar news. another is built in Guangzhou, southern China, by a Chinese graduated within China. all of them in my view quite flat. they never die, unlike yahoo or those startups in US. they services, like email, blog, album, alumni, none deserve a compare with that of American isp, but never one can imagine their quit. for in China, most important is u granted to live by the authority, but not u r better survived.

there is no news in my view in China, for almost all medias belong to the state, and through state-owned enterprise and affiliate office to the government departments, most Chinese don't have the freedom of finding a alternative job in free job market, which only belong to peasants work temporarily in City to build or maintain the less bright part of the life of city(even in this market peasants were yet fined). anyone in mainland China lives in fear and insecure for their life and living decided by the higher cadre and finally the state, which in fact a dictator with a police mind set. in fact, in most common people's view, the journalist in China never enjoy the respect they should or does in freedom world, for most people know their job is a kind of brag of officer among Chinese social ladder. they work in boring and planned, and earn some additional money, like quite some positions in China society which breeds bribery rampant,  from paid news, nothing creative or independent, nor respectable/responsive.

In your experience, how does the average Chinese citizen react to the restrictions placed on Journalists?

most Chinese just endured and waiting for a hitchhike toward a better politically architectured new China. they learned from generations that the leader and first out-standing risk most, they kept themselves distant from the bureaucrat which can profane and absorb any gifted mind, charging their life for thousand years in China history, with envy and hatred. and quite some part of the mob in Chinese society was bought by the ruling squad and live in abnormal psychological set and darkened belief. that likely why in China recent history they chose violence rather than God. they immersed themselves in the virtual potent from group or blood links, to evade the natural call of mercy upon unfair and bully and indifferent pervading in nowadays China mainland. in some gauge Chinese in mainland don't have average, the government these years spent a lot to buy services in rural area, in student group, in youth, with state resource to divide the previous wild hatred class. in some ways Chinese people in mainland now quite and only recognize the green paper, the money, that can improve their life a bit and only a bit, for any further plan unstable, just like the upper building and the doctrine, both based on disappearing smoke-alike clouds of lies.

What are the consequences of Journalists who speak out?

the government tighten the spread of news of its victims. quite some cases well-known were journalists in southern China media reporting death as result in government's failure got fired or separate in glass house of alien. there is no bone nor backbone at all in China journalists or journalism. punishment never disclosed. the afford from the victims and all invisible constrains cast on them, never can spread out to social commonsense nor turn clear. that's rightly the effect of terror the dictator want to exert.

Do you know of any journalists that have been censored by the Chinese Government?

first, there is very rare in Chinese licensed journalists who still had the self-responsibility for the right, for the independence. second, if there is standout, u don't know, for that forever their last struggle before their free fall into noname.


What kinds of bans or restrictions have been placed on internet use and what, if any, reasons does the government give for these restrictions?

every computer in Internet cafes within China mainland with their own watch dog, every web accessed  equipments registered and under the surveillance, with their only id. if there is something clear in the dictating country like China mainland, that's the only one: everyone, men or thing, has its individual secret log, maintained and focused by the dog dominated country, with its ruling hand.


How do you get around the restrictions? Do you think China will change its policies?

years ago i tried proxy and sometimes work. but these days the technology adopted by China Internet cop more and more stronger and failed more and more proxies. the machine dog team boast its tech to apply for its bonus bone from the dog-minded dictator, so it wouldn't loose its reign, never, before their total collapse.

What is your goal for China regarding free speech?

i live in God's shine, and never worry the future of China in my best wish. God saves and only he has the final word. i live with peace in the view of the end of the dirty state power theft. they can be also included in God's set for China's march toward ONE World within he glads. 

How does your faith in God relate to this goal?

i in depth belief of God, Christian God, i was educated from distress of love with a beautiful tall Chinese collegian. i was educated by spiritual ebook written by American. i know now i was chosen to follow my fate, to resume his glory, to resume my ancestor's glory, on this old land. i can be meaningless like a wind or breeze, i can be weighted as the highest monument people and people to arrive had to raise their heads to watch. i don't assert my deed in the world, but i assert i forever in shine.

How do the restrictions on journalists and internet censorship relate to the Tiananmen Square massacre that occurred on June 4, 1989?

 u can google, which also under surveillance in China and bring less result page than u can. a google group at i can mention, even quite trifle, but u can read complains and curses upon the surveillance and 6.4 special blockage, if u can read Chinese. even in the group, there is i guess spy from the state intelligent.
BTW, i want post this email to my blog, at .i can delay posting after u make usage of it. i wait for ur response and do it before next Monday, in ur curtsy.

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June 9, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

bright days.

stream in front cannel of the village.
From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey
duck family in front cannel stream of the village.
its has been near a week since my last post. in these week i customized my windows boot screen and logon interface, and tried to update baby’s desktop in Qiqihar. i also fine tuned my family facebook accounts, adding openid service, fit logos of my groups and pages there. also i claimed new sites from google sites, ie. sites for my girl zhou, like , ,for my baby’s mother, ema, like and , i also fine tuned my family accounts at plaxo, adding logon with facebook connect, claimed family accounts at yahoo profiles, which substitutes old yahoo blog system yahoo 360. i also created a profile for my cyber enterprise,, in title bebazh, for facebook don’t allow number in user name. i customized my family twitter accounts with new background images i designed, after learning from other twitters’ background. for diigo refused updating my imported bookmarks for several months, i tried to create a new diigo account to import my local bookmarks again, but after some delay just after imported, it again lost my import and bookmarked nothing. i guess China surveillance likely controlled my all diigo accounts and locked them up. diigo is a Chinese enterprise based in US, while heavily rely its team in western China. anything u trust to Chinese in mainland would be a mistake, for mainland Chinese is mostly a betrayal, they born after cleanse too weak to be good. i direct message and also feedback via page to the company, but never got a reply.

the long drizzle days passed, which likely brought some drain to south China while the northern China suffered drought. i later realized that Masheng letting girl  on duty. i quite enjoy the rains, even mostly i busy online and seldom talk with it. i love girl  even i now can’t figure out how is like when i live with her aside. the rainning days let me stayed all time at home and engaged till exhaust. now its a bright morning, its 2 or 3 days after the same weather. i enjoy working in the open air on my dad’s front yard in bright light and breezes. its temperature really nice, to let u best fit. last dusk i realized that my broadband here was offered by Masheng, and she did company me all these days before i returned hometown. i beg Masheng sooner join me and take care of my life in garden, in her garden.
here China surveillance tighten rein with crazy, lots of sites blocked deadly, failed most web proxies. some sites accessible last day, like yahoo profiles,, etc, with which i can draw a conclusion with safe that the ban list on China Internet gateway tailored for me, and the China Internet cop monitor my web activities and steal my web form submissions real time. 

ok, its a bit wasteful to utter about the evil in China. God’s day to cleanse it never changes. i look forward to my ancestor’s fond over it can boost it better in coming world conflicts and starve.

here is my sites recently claimed.


zhuson, united US and China under God’s shine
songdod, song for God, on and forever
beinzh, burning people in destructive nationgozhous, God over US and Japan and China

on google sites:

gozhus, shares God’s shine between US and China
godzhous, God’s love among nation of US, Japan, and China
godzhus, God shines over US and China
emagartendreamthatflies | emagarten
emagartom, sunshine kills
emagarton, dream blossoms

on yahoo profiles:
benzillar | benzradi | be21zh
zhudajiu | zhudajiu
zhuson | zhuson@ymail
zhusis | zhuson
emakingir | emakingir
emagarten | emagarten
warrenzh | flickr
warrendzh | warrentzh
warranzh | warranzh
warrenzhu | flickr
warrinzhu | warrenzeu

on facebook:
Beba Zh

on diigo bookmarks user:


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June 1, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

a raining day, busy with microblogs’ impression improvement.

From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey
From Still lifes (3) ∑ hometown journey

it has been more than a week since i update my album here. i recently surfed lately in night, so gotup later than usual. these days frequent cloudy days, so i can work in open air in my dad’s house’ front yard for more than 7 hours or so. there r also raining days. last sunset when i sang a love song, it drizzled, from a sunny day. this morning before i gotup it rained and continued since them. i worked in my bedroom under lamp most of the day, busy with fine tuned the background picture of my family twitter accounts, and i think its rewarding. i got break till after 3pm and satisfied. after rested some time i decided to blog it, and update my album with shots, mostly still life in the rain.

those days i also spent lots of time got myself familiar with the expanding service of qq, a domestic mainstream service provider. i also fine tuned my microblog with 3 domestic sp, ie. qq’s taotao,,, founding can update all of them via qq’s signature. i also setup my cellphone, so as to post on the move, and autopost to other microblog portal, including my twitter.

i do anything under God’s guide. still, i got revenge from my nephew, who i love best among the next generation of my old family. i started to comment on his blog at qzone, a service of qq, when he complained pains of losing a love, then he silenced, till recently he practicing in remote province before his graduation. this time he despised love and friendship. i commented that they do exist and should be cherished. i told him he in God’s fond. that ignite his revenge. he didn’t deleted all posting, but changed his homepage with picture of sword and titled it “killing”. i never forget anything i did, but i surely see the gaps between the faith and the person self-contented in material world.

ok, its a peaceful night, and the rain likely stopped. i thank u, Masheng, let me the baptism and time to linger indoor and watch the rain. its really too beautiful.


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raining afternoon, front yard of my past dad’s old house.


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May 25, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

drizzle since last afternoon, heavenly love.

bulls on the grass in back of the village

the only pig nearby, eating his own.

drizzle gathered on stone stool.

drizzle since last afternoon, heavenly love.
benzrad, me, pose for a shot.

yesterday is a cloudy day first, i busy with reading and blogging. after noon i quit from notebook and dozed awhile on bed. when i missing years in Nankai Univ., where i met Masheng heavenly, it started to drizzle, out of my surprise. in the night i sms exchanged a lot with a facebook girl friend, who from Guangdong, south China, but now study in Shanghai. it later turned into a loving chase. the rain continued all night. in the mornign today i continued to ask the girl about my love and possible marriage. she defied it. i then sorted my recent photos and video, esp. this morning of the drizzle, online album and locally, till late afternoon. now i was left alone with my cool world of waiting and solitary for the descend of my Japanese fiancee. that’s fine. 

 wet ground in front yard of my past dad’s old house.

the same video on facebook.

updated picasaweb album


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May 20, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment